People are.. complicated. And the way people feel is even more complicated, but nowadays with the vast amount of gender identities and expressions, there are ways to make being yourself a little... less complicated. And I think I've got it figured out. ...for the most part. anyways, this is really just me ranting about what I feel I am, and I think it would be fascinating to come back to this in like... 5 years and see if I still feel the same. ...okay. This is a tricky subject, but I'm pretty sure I mostly understand how I feel. For years, I didn't feel like a guy, or a girl, and the only trans I thought existed was transmale and transfemale, so I was kinda stuck in the middle with... something. Currently, I identify as Agender. Agender is defined as not having a gender, or a "lack" of gender, and I feel like this represents me pretty well. I don't see myself as having any gender, and that's where it gets a bit weird. By definition, agender is technically a gender itself, so it's kind of a paradox. I see myself as genderless, but I really just say I'm agender to make it easier for other people to understand how I feel. I'm just me. Which is pretty cool actually. I've never really liked being seen as anything other than a thing, which some people will probably see as pretty weird or whatever, but like. i don't care LOL What I am is none of your damn business weirdo, let me be me in PEACE My pronouns are pretty simple. It/its/itself seems to work for me best, I like the way they make me feel lol. People (mostly my family) have told me "but, if we call you an it, it makes you seem like a.. thing! You don't want tha-" I do actually. I do like being a thing. I'm still a person, but instead of a boy or a girl, I'm a thing. I also like he/him/himself pronouns, I'm still very comfortable with my masculinity despite not identifying as male, I don't care being called a "dude" or a "guy", or even outright called a boy or man. I'm just comfortable existing as a thing that appears a little more masc. I don't like they/them/themselves pronouns for some reason. I'm not sure why, but I just... don't like it. Same goes for she/her/herself pronouns lol. I don't actually mind neopronouns, such as xe/xem, or even nounself pronouns. I don't say I use them, but if they were used for me, I wouldn't mind. Although, I feel like I'm only okay with it as long as it's online, idk why. But yeah, I don't mind em. So as long as we're on the web, go nuts !! Okay, this is going to be confusing. And brief. As a general rule, I don't share my personal romantic and/or sexual preferences with people I'm not familiar with, as personally I feel like that kind of thing is something you shouldn't have to share unless you're actually pursuing a relationship with whomever you're sharing your preferences with, but that's just my personal opinion. But anyways, for the sake of this log, I'll summarise my basic experience. I have never really experienced romantic attraction, and every time I think I have, it's ended with it really being platonic or aesthetic attraction. I am autistic, and I struggle even with most non romantic relationships regularly, I never know how I feel, or how the other person feels, and it's a mess. So, I see myself as nebularomantic. Nebularomantic means that I do not understand if I'm feeling romantic attraction or not because of my neurodivergency. I just don't. I guess, if I ever had a relationship, it would be queerplatonic. I really don't see myself dating otherwise, because I'd never know how I'd actually be feeling. But who knows, maybe by the time you're reading this, I've already changed my mind. edit as of 21/12/23: i changed my mind. (no honorific) → yes please mr → yes mx → sure? miss → no lol ma'am → no ?? mrs → no ?? pretty → yes handsome → sure lol cute → sure lol hot → ..no sexy → ..ew thing → yes ! person → yes ! guy → yes boy → yes man → sure woman → ..no lady → no dude → yes girl → ..no enby → ..no sib → sure?  
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